Is that you God?

Oldest left to get married see previous blog named "Oh how fast they grow", Husband deployed see previous blog named  "The Beginning of a Deployment 2012"

A while ago I started praying more, I never really pray for something for myself, I pray for my husband, my daughters, my extended family, my Soldiers, my Outlaw wives & there families, I pray for friends, neighbors, strangers...I am not a overly religious person I believe in God and in a greater purpose. I have randomly found myself talking to God its obviously a one sided conversation but as I talk and ponder the topic sometimes part of a song will pop in my head ...I never thought to much of it but over the past month its happened pretty regularly and the songs are always fitting..

Once again I found myself in a situation I didn't want to be in. Driving home I tell God I know that you have a reason for every thing and at times the reason is not obvious to us here ...I need just a sign everything is going to be all right ...and once more a part of a song pops in my head...I drive on and later that night I say I just don't understand why...the song verse pops in my head...as a friend posts a photo of our lost Outlaw once again the song pops in my head...So is this where God is answering me? I forsee a blog about this in the future ...for the recent events to raise questions of WHY?? the answer I keep hearing is "I'm goin' down in a blaze of glory"


I wake up in the mornin'
And I raise my weary head
I got an old coat for a pillow
And the earth was last night's bed
I don't know where I'm goin'
Only God knows where I've been
I'm a devil on the run
A six gun lover
A candle in the wind, yeah

You're brought into this world
But they say you're born in sin
Well at least they've given me something
I didn't have to steal or have to win
Well, they tell me that I'm wanted
Yeah I'm a wanted man
I'm colt in your stable
I'm what Cain was to Able
Mister catch me if you can

I'm goin' down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Take me now but know the truth
I'm goin' down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Lord I never drew first
But I drew first blood
I'm no one's son
Call me young gun

You ask about my conscience
And I offer you my soul
You ask if I'll grow to be a wise man
Well I ask if I'll grow old
You ask me if I known love
And what it's like to sing songs in the rain?
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/bon-jovi-lyrics/blaze-of-glory-lyrics.html ]
Well, I've seen love come
I've seen it shot down
I've seen it die in vain

Shot down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Take me now but know the truth
But I'm going down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Lord, I never drew first
But I drew first blood
I'm a devil's son
Call me young gun
Yeah

Each night I go to bed
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
No, I ain't lookin' for forgiveness
But before I'm six foot deep
Lord, I got to ask a favor
And I'll hope you'll understand
'Cause I've lived life to the fullest
Let this boy die like a man
Starin' down the bullet
Let me make my final stand

Shot down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Take me now but know the truth
I'm going down in a blaze of glory
(Down)
Lord, I never drew first
But, I drew first blood
I'm no one's son
Call me young gun

I'm the young gun
Young gun, yea eee yea
Young gun